Journeys and thoughts for all the world to see!

January 1, 2010 at 4:03 pm 3 comments


Why do some of us put our most intimate private thoughts and journeys out for a whole wide world to see?

We aren’t running for office so no need for “public disclosure”. We aren’t rich, famous or of celebrity status with the need for a fan base to keep us in the public eye.

We are, for the most part,wanting to communicate great emotion, joy, sorrow , anger , being scared or bewildered by events that shape our existence – a search for others like us who have also taken a similar path. We are reaching out!

Writing things down somehow helps some of us with “clarity.”
As for myself reading the words I have written as they appear on the screen can remove me from myself and I become – a reader – .

A reader who has searched the internet for others like myself. I spent hours and hours on blogs and websites re Hodgkin’s Lymphoma and treatments, stem cells transplants and even more recently for the trial drug SGN 35.. You follow the links in the posts, those highlighted words, in this blog’s format the words in green, that take you on an even more in-depth journey of information.

The “official websites” were of course helpful in their “clinical way ” but it was the blogs of the people who were going through these ordeals. The rawness of their writing, a truth that wasn’t politically correct or sugar coated- I appreciated the honesty of their journey .

Some had passed but their journey was still there to see, they told the story and I was “informed” – maybe not always in the way I had hoped, but it was their truth and their journey and the path we also walked. I am grateful to those that share. You may not have given me the “rose-colored glasses hope” for which I was desperately searching but you gave me honesty .

I have 11 posts in “draft form”, some may never be published . I am not sure where I am on this planet at the moment. I vacillate between great anger and great sorrow, the pain of both slowing down the thought process.

There is so much going on in this little house I am not sure even the world-wide web is ready for those writings and I am not sure I can write them with out sugar coating -yet!

I know I am not alone – I have searched the web and “we are many” .


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  • 1. Mark  |  January 1, 2010 at 6:00 pm

    It is also cathartic, Loraine. And while you may not publish it for the whole wide world to see, it definitely helps to get it out of your system. Many times I wrote something for my blog, or the forum, or even an email to someone, and let it sit for a few days, and then deleted it into oblivion. I felt better, I’d got it out of my system, and I didn’t have to engage the target of the writing, sparing them a dressing down, as they say.

    You know from your stats that people want to read what you’ve been writing, and I can tell you from my stats that folks are still looking for you and Chris. Keep sharing, Loraine, it’ll make you feel a little better, and it’ll give the rest of us some insight into what really happened.

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  • 3. Loraine Ritchey  |  January 1, 2010 at 9:16 pm

    Thanks Mark, I cannot do anything but actually I am being driven ….. and in some respects it is cathartic and giving closure where one was cruelly and stupidly taken from me …. everyone needs a focal point for their grief and when that focal point is denied wellllllll

    However it is also the blogs that I come across , not just the Cancer blogs, but life blogs and ordinary people living through great happiness and sadness and their stories, unvarnished that have helped me in so many situations….and I believe that I am not alone in being helped by perfect strangers.

    There is a blog on my blogroll – he is very diverse in his postings but he has always even in the toughest times has given me pause to think, to breath, to smile. Perfect stranger but one who through his posts has helped more than he will ever know..he takes me home to a place I need to be …can’t say he has saved my sanity because I am not sure that has happened as yet…

    As for stats yes they have gone through the roof in the past month…. Loraine

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