April 3rd – a puddle day- the third- the sandbox -missing you – Chris Ritchey
April 3rd—- another April starts and the memories continue……
You were in the 1st phase of your part one of the double stem cell transplant when Gavin was born- You talked Nikki through during her labor- from your hospital bed to hers- you made her laugh through her own pain and fears as she brought your nephew into the world. And the first thing you did upon being released from the Cleveland Clinic was come to see your new nephew.
Your poor body had been blasted with poisons to kill a greater poison, that of the obscenity of cancer! Your brown eyes held the pain locked in the darkness of the shadows that surrounded them. As I looked at the signs of your struggle my heart wept for my own son but you smiled as you held Gavin for the first time – – that smile that reminded of how I much I loved you and needed to be strong for you.
I want to be a great uncle – to teach him to play soccer and be the one that won’t ever judge him
You weren’t able to be there for his first birthday although he had his “Chris MISS present” that year and ever since.
I will keep my promise to my son , your Uncle Chris and there will be a present for you always from him , one that I know you and he will appreciate. Although I am not sure mummy and daddy will always agree with the choice
Gavin “KNOWS” his Uncle Chris- Nikki has talked about you everyday- you are as real to him as we are – he blows you a kiss every night before bed – his favourite quiet time is leafing through your portfolio – especially the truck advertisements you created. He knows that Uncle Chris is special and loved him.
Although you never got to hold Braedyn he too, will know the Uncle Chris of our hearts and hold him in his little heart as well- a love of you that doesn’t fade. He has his “birth present” from his Uncle Chris and your artwork is in his nursery- to be with him as he grows.
As Gavin’s 3rd birthday loomed- once again no hesitation as to what your gift to him would be – it had to have something to do with trucks and dirt ( he loves dirt” and puddles )
The “sandbox construction site” was the obvious choice – although it is meant to be outside – the whole world – including mummy’s kitchen is Gavin’s playground- Even the Plasma car- “outside only” holds no such restrictions for Gavin .
And since in Gavin’s world there are no boundaries he will not push – in the corner of the kitchen – until the weather warms – there is now a “construction world” and his favourite present of all- from his Uncle Chris… although I have a feeling Gavin’s daddy is not amused 😉